The Many Ramblings and Rants of Heath

Over the weekend Brandon my training partner and I went to Wichita to grade to our next levels in Wing Chun. I have been training for around 9 years or so and would be an instructor by now if I had been able to continue in our class. Due to going to tech school for several years I had to train outside of class. Our school has closed down but many of us are still around and a few of us still train. I ran into Brandon awhile back and he told me about his class that he had been running out of his house so I started going there to train. We have several students all of which are new to martial arts or at least new to Wing Chun. A few of Brandon’s students went to the Wichita school to grade in front of our Sifu we all graded and passed to the next level. Bad thing is that Brandon and I were not able to make up the tests we were not able to grade for in the past so we both only went up one level. We were not asked to demonstrate most of what we know it’s a bit disappointing but we will get there.

I was asked to perform up to the 4th set of techniques for the wooden dummy but went to the 6th which is were Brandon was supposed to stop. We know the whole form it just kind of sucks that we weren’t able to show everything we know. Brandon and I basically had to spar each other and it was a bit funny because everyone started clapping. We did good but I am just a bit upset that we were not asked to show more of what we know and were held back. We had a class tonight and watched the video we made we talked about it and are planning to train harder. We plan to do more then we have ever done before in our classes most of our old classmates have forgotten their training and we feel it’s up to us to continue with our school.

I am going this weekend to grade at the new Wichita Kung Fu school well new for me. I have yet to see the place. I may be grading to level 9 it means that I will have maybe a year and I could be a full instructor. I am hoping everything goes well been training a long time for this and practicing hard for a while now to grade with everyone there. We have no official class here in Garden anymore but a friend and I train several people so this is good.

I plugged in my PS3 and my surge protector blew. Things seemed ok but later the PS3 bugged out on me and wouldn’t play. I was able to reset the system thanks to the tech guys at Sony. Thank fucking god for that one. I did unfortunately lose all my saved game data and will have to start completely over…..

Seen The Book of Eli it was ok not great but ok. I personally say it’s not worth the cost of going to the theater but will probably buy it later. It’s all about a Bible and the loss of faith. The power it holds over mankind and how it can be used for good or evil. Eli must carry the last known bible West a task given to him by god. The world is recovering from nuclear war and much like Road Warrior there are people on the roads killing to live. It felt like Fallout 3 without the mutants and stuff. The fights were cool but to fake there were some good twists to the show. I am not sure what people will think of it many will probably hate it but for fans of post apocalyptic stories this may end up a cult thing. I personally think movies such as the Postman were slightly better. The Book of Eli has a faster pace to it complete with some good fighting where he whips out a blade and takes a bunch of people’s heads off. I would have liked it to have a bit more to it I guess some bigger action. The fights were cool unfortunately they just seemed to fake to me and I would have liked to see more. The bad guys seemed like pussies only one acted like he may be a real bad ass but he never does anything. The main villain looks to me like an old televangelist who understands the power he could wield over people if he just had the words. Eli has the means to this power but refuses to give him the book.

I have been playing the new game M.A.G. for the PS3 right now it’s in the final Beta phase. The game is similar to Call Of Duty only much bigger 256 players online. I like it but some don’t seem to care for it much I will say other then a few things it’s nothing really new. I am having fun with it anyway and will buy it when it’s released. The main trouble I have had is that it’s hard to cycle through gear to get a grenade ready. I like how in some games you can hold a grenade ready before throwing it so you can time things. This game throws it as soon as you hit the button I believe. I can’t say a lot really it’s massive and I like the ability to upgrade your gear and modify your player. I have been playing as S.V.E.R. I think it’s pronounced sever. They seem like a rag tag group out of Russia and Asia Punkish in style. My character wears a hoodie like outfit with a hockey mask painted with a skull. I also have a heavier armored guy with a Russian helmet who also wears the mask and carries a machinegun. This game needs a bit more work but really I think it’s a cool game it has had little advertisement. If you have a PS3 check it out it’s due to release this month from what I hear.

The game play is different than most of the shooters I have played only because of the size and number of players Battlefield 2142 was the only one I can think of that feels like this. I will just talk about one mode for now in Sabotage you attack or defend 2 points A or B. Once they are captured a third is revealed at this point the attacking force respawns in several ways one is by airdrop. There are other modes that offer other things vehicles, airstrikes, helicopter drops. It’s a big game 2 of three factions fight Raven, Valor, S.V.E.R. you choose who you play as creat a character and each has their own talents and gear. As you progress you gain points that you can use to buy other weapons and tools. Higher ranks gain the ability to command. It’s simple really.

I have a new 42” LCD Flat Screen and am currently playing the M.A.G. beta on my PS3. This TV kicks ass and should be great with my PS3. So I have a new girlfriend, new car and a new TV. I guess im doing good. Happy New Year everyone I hope this is just a start to mine.

Monday my father took my girlfriend and I and several of my other relatives to Liberal to see the movie Avatar in 3D. Liberal was the closest theater to offer it in 3D. I liked this movie a lot it was not the best movie I have ever seen but it’s one of my new favorites. I liked the movie for several reasons. First off it was amazing in 3D I would love to see it again but I wont drive an hour to see it again. As I told my boss it’s worth killing to see it in 3D. There are no movies that I know of at this time that can beat this movie. I don’t believe any other will come close for a long while. Another reason I liked this movie was the connection to the Native Americans. I won’t spoil it to much but the story behind Avatar is all about humans entering the world of Pandora to harvest an alien mineral. The inhabitants are merely a minor setback. Much like the Native peoples of the Americas The People live off the land and are deeply connected to their world in ways we can not understand. The Avatar program involves mixing human DNA with that of the locals. One is matched with an Avatar based on their DNA and you remotely control your Avatar through something similar to a brain scanning device like a sensory deprivation chamber.

Each Avatar looks like one of the locals but is based on your DNA and is a lifeless body until your connected. They call these people Dream Walkers and refer to us as the Sky People. I wont go into any more details. There were some issues I had with animals and things being to much like Earth. There are horse like creatures and things that I felt lacked a bit of imagination. Take away the alien world insert a British officer and the chief’s daughter something similar to Pocahontas and your close. I wont downplay this movie it was very good but to me it was an old story turned Sci Fi. Man comes seeking adventure, ends up getting into a mess involving 2 cultures, falls in love and then has to choose between his new love and his old life. If these old stories bore you this film will keep you entertained. All in all it’s worth a drive to get to see it in 3D.

I have written a few things but then just keep erasing them. Anyway I will complete this one. I am currently involved with a woman named Faith she suffers from Fibromyalgia and has 4 kids. Things aren’t perfect but I have been happy with things. People don’t think it smart of me but this is where life has led me. There are some more complicated issues im just hoping that we can get past them fast and put it behind us. I like her and she seems to feel I am a major comfort for her condition. For people that don’t know FMS causes a lot of pain in the muscles and joints as well as fatigue and other issues. Some days she is fine others she can hardly move. I am happy that I bring her some comfort I only wish we had met a long time ago. Things could be better and im not sure yet how I feel. She already has 4 kids but I like her enough to try to make this work im more worried that I can’t do much. All I can do is see where this goes.

Faith and I met online then later stopped talking and latter I found that she was friends with my sister in law. We began talking again and things took off quickly from there I spend much of my time with her and the kids now. Monday we went to Dodge City and I bought me a new car. I have needed one for a while now. My brother Jeff, his wife, Faith and I went to Dodge ate and went looking. I now have an 09 Impala LT and a nice car payment for the next 5 years or so. The car is nice I got a good deal thanks to my sister in law who talked them down $2000. I was feeling a lot better about life although things aren’t as good as I would like them to be but people have not been helping me to stay that way and now there are some issues Faith and I must work on. Nothing really that has much to do with us but there may be some issues that we can’t change that could end the relationship. Unfortunately love isn’t as easy as I think it should be. Her kids said a few things to me about us being together and I didn’t say a word. Thinking about it I would have told them adult relationships and love are very complicated beyond their comprehension and sometimes beyond our own.

I wish I could change things but I can’t take away her condition I can’t turn back the clock and im not sure if im able to sacrifice my desires. As of right now we are together we have all done things in the past that we can’t change and as much as we would like to say the past is the past that past is part of us and can haunt our future existence. I can only wait and see how everything plays out and make a decision as to what path I want to take. Things were so much easier with other women I had feelings for in the past but this is where I am and I wonder at times if I am being tested. If I could I would not leave her side. It’s no easy feat for me to go back into the cold after I have been in her company to return home to my empty room and an empty bed.

I have a girlfriend for once in my life we never dated just talked a bit and one thing led to another and it’s become much more serious then we had intended but im not complaining. Im happy so is she and we have talked about things so I think we will be ok. I had her and her kids come and spend thanksgiving with my family. There are issues that I am not comfortable with but im trying to look at it as past events that have no place in our current life. Well anyway I was with Faith Monday and a friend of hers called asking if she could come over. Later Faith asked if I would take her by this friends house to get her and her kids because she was having trouble with her husband. I took her over and when we got in the house they were arguing. Several times he told her he would hit her. He told her if she wanted to go then go but she wasn’t taking the kid. I believe only one was his the other was from another guy. Faith took the 2 year old to my car as I stayed in the house. James backed the woman into the bedroom blocking her from leaving as she held the baby.

Again he told her if you leave with the kid I will pop you in the mouth. At this point I was tired and wanted to leave. I told him if you hit her I will take your ass out. He turned to me and said you will take my ass out…. Take my ass out then and he rushed me. He grabbed me and threw me through the door. I broke the door frame a bit as I fell backwards through it and fell off the porch into the yard. When I got up he was coming towards me. I threw a right roundhouse to his side and back fisted him in the face. He punched me in the eye and threw me on the ground where I had hold of him but he backed off I got up and we left with her and the kids. I now have a black eye and a few scrapes. I turned him in but wont do much good im sure. I was later informed I broke one of his ribs. She is already back with the worthless fuck but I was told he is in a lot of pain. Maybe next time he will stick to beating on women but I am hoping he learned some people hit back.

I am sort of seeing someone I guess we haven’t actually said anything to each other about it but I wasn’t sure what to think now I feel I can’t really walk away. Faith is really nice and despite the issues that she’s stuck with I can’t tell myself I would be any better off staying away. For several days I have been over at her place off and on and for the past few nights I have slept with her. I do not mean anything physical happened I wasn’t asking and neither has she. I have taken her and the kids out several times now. She falls asleep while laying on me she says the warmth helps relives a lot of her Fibromyalgia pain. She is friends with my sister in law who has informed me of several of their conversations im not sure how much has been said but I know Faith likes me. She told me she has not slept so good in a long time because I give off a lot of heat. I can’t deny that LOL I walk in snow bare foot.

I won’t say this is a perfect situation and she’s not everything I would normally be looking for but I think im happy regardless. I decided to try to just go with the next person I met who I had some interest in and it’s her. I like her, she likes me, we are into a lot of the same things, she’s not freaking about my gun. On top of this we sort of just ran into each other one day out of no where and recently I found out her daughter is learning the violin. Anyway I took her out for lunch we went to a movie with my brother and his wife Sunday and then I took her and her kids out to eat. She likes games and computers, we watch anime, she’s into Star Wars and Star Trek she mentioned Sea Quest before I did…… She can’t be all that bad.

Her kids discovered us sleeping together gave us a good laugh and her youngest today said something about us getting married LOL. Little to soon for that. Haven’t asked her out yet.